Writing: Don't Wander

Don’t wander through the silence


You’re not ready for the disappointment

Or are you?

Don’t wander through the darkness

You’re not ready for the trickiest of time

Or are you?

Don’t wander..
Don’t wander..


Close your eyes and breathe it out..

Don’t wander, don’t wonder


You’re not ready, you will never be

Jakarta, 24 May 2013

Hastuti Viana Putri (Asti Viana)

This. I wrote almost two years ago. I couldn't remember what was going on with my life that time,  either it's a small or big thing, but I know I must be going through something at that time. Silly old me.

I wrote this as a reminder to not overthink and so I wouldn't easily carried away by the voices of regrets, doubts and curiosity especially when those voices come from the past or even worse, the future that wasn't there yet. This could work as a wake up call for those spaces who long for joy. 

We need to admit that sometimes, it's ourselves who let our soul feel the darkness of time. In times, we knew that we had the choice to 'not mourn', but somehow our mind chose to be buried inside the coldness even though the light was always there to gave a little warmth.

.... Even after two years... 

Of course, there were times when I had the least amount of smiles yet I still managed to skip it. There were days where the regrets and endless possibilities were ruthlessly dancing in our mind, but those doleful things could  be stopped by not letting our mind wander and wonder too far. 

By not letting myself drawn, I came to realize that I've grown into someone who I always wanted to be. I didn't need someone else's agreement whether I've grown or not. But I'm able to feel that I've become a better me, and I am a happier soul now.